tonight I shed a tear for you

Well... Well... Well... It's getting close to "that time" (the time where we go from our home, to another home, that's new to us and that is not the home we are in now), we are almost all packed up and ready to head out and day by day we are getting more anxious for our departure... we are so excited to start our new journey and yet so sad to say good bye to the place that has brought us together and has made us so many great friends and wonderful memories...

For me, moving has always been a big part of my younger 20something days, so when it has come time to pack up and move forward it has come easily to me, for a long time I took pride into being able to fit just about everything that I own in the trunk of a car. But this time is a bit different for me, my time in California has become me. Since graduating college and chasing me, this place has easily felt like my second home, and actually my first adult home (I actually have furniture and a plant that's half alive). The sun has a way with wrapping its arms around you and the people here have become a part of my heart. There is just something about having the beach beside you that is so fulfilling and knowing the sun will shine tomorrow brings an ease to your mind.

This time I think about everyone I will miss, not only all of my close friends that I have started spending family holidays with instead of my family (these people that have actually become my family)(with, of course, the exception of my fabulous sister that has brought the familiarity of home out to the west with me <3)... But I think of all the people that have become a part of my life here in small ways, some people I do not see often but think of often, some people that do not even know the impact they have had on my life here... both small and large. I think about every single one of you and how my weeks and days will just never be the same without you.

I am excited for this journey, I am ecstatic to be close to my family again and to reunite with my old friends. I can not wait to plan my wedding and to marry the most incredible person I know. I know laughter and warmth will fill my heart and this will be one of the most exciting points in my life...

But tonight, tonight I shed a tear for you.

... for I will miss you more than you will ever know.